the death of the musician

its always sad when a musician dies, some musicians just weren't meant to live very long , some aren't of this world in the first place then they die. it makes sense.
and in other ways maybe living on this earth was just too much, maybe they were just tired, maybe they had to rid themselves of their thoughts or maybe someone just had to do it for them.. maybe some of them just got lost along the ride.some of these dead musicians were never going to last. Others could have stayed longer.. like John Lennon, he could have stayed here and grown old .i don't think Jim could ever stay longer than he did and he didn't,he died in Paris, Kurdt Cobain wouldn't have lasted either, not even if someone took the gun away, he'd find another way to die, whether it was on purpose or accidental.I'm not saying they deserve to die, I guess I'm just saying their demise was inevitable .


its late and i want to get off this , I'll finish it another time. this has been in the back of my head for some time now but i cant push myself to complete it or even come close to doing so, i guess whenever something comes to mind I'll add on to it.

just a reoccuring event

in my life. Oh god it really gets under my skin and i start to over think, that's MY problem MY damage MY deal, yeah i know.This whole 'now I'm feeling different' thing - this stupid i change my mind. truth is I'm tired of changing my mind, I'd like some precision.. I'd like to know what i want and when i want it, what I'm doing and why I'm doing it.what I'm thinking and why, because lately I've been here there and everywhere and in the in-between. i don't feel i have the time for such time consuming motions anymore and I'm sure that will change but maybe it shouldn't.i guess what i would really like is some stability instead of the.how can i say this..-lets connect for 5 minutes or so, and then let me decide i don't care for you anymore and allow me to slip out through the back door. ?

i don't know where my head is.